hurt and empty inside/-today was worse than any other days...
you know what i want?
dont think so...
what i want is to make new friends and stay close to old friends
but i can only complete half of what i wanna do.
at least i am not like someone...
who used to be really close
but in the end
she got stolen by others
now i rarely talk to her
much less share anything with her.
at the start of the year
she said she didn't like krystle
but now she is hanging with her most of the time
sometimes when i am feeling hurt deep inside my heart
she never even notice that
all she know is play with her new found best friends
and not care about me
the only times she need me is when we do project work
but her so-called best friends already formed a group
without including her inside!
then even tell justine and not let me know
i thought that she did not like justine
then rather let her know and not me
everytime need something then look for me
nothing then chunk me aside
from now i am not going to trust anyone so easily
except justine.
"i know i am not your best friend anymore but i still love you.hope to spend more time with you from now on so can you please treat me as your friend not a stranger.thank you for keeping me company for the first few weeks of school before i got to know anyone.thank you for all the happy moments with you.i am feeling lucky to be your friend..."
"i know i am not as fun as silvia but can you not think of me as a trnaparent sheet of paper.i only want to talk to you at least once in a day.yet not even a hello when we meet.you and JS only have eyes for silvia.its just that i want your attention.whenever you see me you only ask about silvia...i feel that our friendship is going to break but i dont wish that it willhappen.i can only hope that we can remain as friends and that you know how to balance some things."
my heart is empty now that you have left me.
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Posted @ 2:17 AM